Happy 'weird' Anniversary to me !!

Well,Its so weird...sigh!
When its just perfect and you have everything you wanted ever, you just don't need it, you feel like its not for you as if you were never seeking for it.
I wanted to just walk away from it like its not what I want or ever wanted.
Every other thing seems more important than to be a part of it, my first ever anniversary.
Yes! An achievement for a confused person like me. But if I look back, we hardly fought like  grown ups, all other tiffs were like arguments which I would have witnessed with any other unbiased friend of mine.
Look at me,awake this late to update my blog about my stupid feelings or random thoughts...whatever, when my guy is busy making my day worth by getting some good sleep with his exams on one side and our day on other side. We are going to be out for a official 'date' except their wont be any official offcourse (very wrong pj at right moment)
I mean I have always wanted to be a part of this feeling, that is being loved like Im the one and only one for that person. Its not that I have not been in a relationship ever but that all lacked all the biology chemistry, spirituality or whatever and also I wasnt into it like I am this time.
Now that I have him, I want to be alone once again. I want to travel...alone, watch movie...alone, shop, eat lunch and everything with myself. I dread his company for God knows why !!!
Although I have lost my sanity, still... Happy Anniversary to me.
P.S.- I have capability to ruin my own world. Beware! Before taking me as an inspiration( Ah! I owe to my name lol)