Alone uh!...No its lonesomeness!

It was one of the long hour phone call I had with my baba,that usually takes place on Sunday. My ma claims I have inherited everything from her (as if Im parthenocarpic) but it seems I have got the dominant 'gene of speaking' from my dad.
Literally 'of speaking less'.
What is the reason behind bringing the topic of speaking is, I love to be alone.At times I just stare at my phone even though Im geting a call and learning about it however, this news was been transferred to baba's. He is himself an introvert though not a loner.
I have always had a problem with the word alone or loner and also I dread about lifelong confinement as marriage.
 So when he asked me, I thought he will start searching for the reason and parents blaming an animal called boyfriend for anything wrong in their daughter's life is an Indian standard law. But, to my surprise we had an excellent conversation about the relativeness of being lonely and how it changes with our age. We had an argument of it to call lonesomeness.
He though speaks less and has very few measures to express himself (may be we have never provided him) told what Im trying to concise in brief.
Alone, loneliness, loner, lonesomeness,loneliness,alone are like the phases of human life and it has a circle like life and death.
We are born alone, suffer from loneliness when our loved ones leave us, act like a loner in crowd and their creeps an awesomeness of being lone i.e we start loving it as if we were seeking for it,here we are in the phase called lonesomeness. Slowly with age, loneliness subsides the awesomeness, we become weak and dependent and atlast we die alone.
I know it might sound absurd but he never had sound so true. It might be bit depressing as I have brought up with a very negative kind of topic.
In a lighter note, he had some more thing to tell. As Im in phase 4 and he is somewhere between phase 5 and 6 , he wishes me to be prepared for the next two phase which might be terrible.
Do you want to marry or already have someone fixed??
P.S. Wow! My dad just have won the prize for changing my amusement to disappointment ! Ive underestimated his expression it seems.

Happy 'weird' Anniversary to me !!

Well,Its so weird...sigh!
When its just perfect and you have everything you wanted ever, you just don't need it, you feel like its not for you as if you were never seeking for it.
I wanted to just walk away from it like its not what I want or ever wanted.
Every other thing seems more important than to be a part of it, my first ever anniversary.
Yes! An achievement for a confused person like me. But if I look back, we hardly fought like  grown ups, all other tiffs were like arguments which I would have witnessed with any other unbiased friend of mine.
Look at me,awake this late to update my blog about my stupid feelings or random thoughts...whatever, when my guy is busy making my day worth by getting some good sleep with his exams on one side and our day on other side. We are going to be out for a official 'date' except their wont be any official offcourse (very wrong pj at right moment)
I mean I have always wanted to be a part of this feeling, that is being loved like Im the one and only one for that person. Its not that I have not been in a relationship ever but that all lacked all the biology chemistry, spirituality or whatever and also I wasnt into it like I am this time.
Now that I have him, I want to be alone once again. I want to travel...alone, watch movie...alone, shop, eat lunch and everything with myself. I dread his company for God knows why !!!
Although I have lost my sanity, still... Happy Anniversary to me.
P.S.- I have capability to ruin my own world. Beware! Before taking me as an inspiration( Ah! I owe to my name lol)