What I learned....

Life has given me a lot. A lot of ups and downs is what I might mean or the experiences. What I meant here is ; it made me better and not bitter.

Like many other people I had a lot of issues; issues related to innumerable 'why?' to a lot more 'why not!'. From right to wrong to my own prediction and presumption. I had spread a lot of negativity around that unfortunately was like a needle in haystack.

Now dealing with what I learned over time-

SORRY- yes! I understood the importance of this magical word if spoken even though its not a mistake of mine, can work like a candle in dark room. Taking responsibility of a problem is the best way, not only it saves argument but also keeps the peace of mind. It might even happen the opponent understands his/her mistake. I learned to say sorry while it doesn't matter who should be saying so.

I AM ME- sometimes time makes you idealize someone better and sometimes it just make you feel less. I've been in this phase until I learned their is another everyone but not me. I'm me, Prerana. I can take their journey as a milestone but I cant be one of them. They are a part of my development and not self-pity. I would always be happy to be me.

BEING HAPPY- even though calamity strikes, one in real distress often find solace if their near ones are happy. I took this job to be happy myself, so that people around not only get a reason to be so but also try the same on others.

NO PRE-CONCEPTION- some incident that might happen shouldn't take away my peace. I have stopped judging the space between the two lines and have ceased the tomorrow's worry to disturb my today's smile. Sometimes we tend to over-think a situation but we forget that their is always a probability. I believe certain things should be kept as it is and should be dealt one at a time.

BEING A PEST- over protectiveness and possessiveness often make us a trouble to our own life. People are responsible for their own happiness or sadness, I cant prevent either just by being their near ones. I can suggest but cant direct anyone's choice. So the best part to keep any relation safe is thinking it like sand, if you press too tight, it will fall.

LESS EXPECTATION- this is a very hard job when you are close to someone in any relativeness. I might not pass completely in this test but I have been through it to a certain extent. Priority matters not that how much importance Im given. I try to feel the best in least amount of affection provided.

P.S.- I'll learn much more as I age to be a better me, in seeing and understanding the silver lining of each cloud and cherishing the life beyond the horizon.

last few days...!

Months back, a friend of mine from school had started the countdown of the last few days in her college at facebook. I couldn't feel then and felt "Amar eishob nostalgia nei". Today its the last Saturday I would have been in college uniform that I hate the most. I preferred not to wear though.

I remember how I turned from being a illi madi to a gym girl to Peru, the model organism of Genetics Department. Pavana mam is going to miss giving live examples of all diseases probably.

Within a couple of days Ill be at home for study leave and its over. Did I really slept through this semester ? I wish I could say its not over yet.

Wait a minute, am I going to feel the same and not be a stereotype? Im going to miss out so many things. I might jot down few what or who Im going to re-think.

• Bunking classes for sleeping and spending time at home would top the priority list
• Excuses of my gaining weight and not wearing the uniform ( I hate it still)
• Getting intimidated as well as knowing a different person in Pavana Mam. I love her smile.
• Raji mam and the colorful drawing with the evergreen smile. Arpita mam and bong connection ( I hardly spoke with her in Bangla ). My fat elephant mam, Kriti mam and the student I see in her (Im surely going to attend your wedding). Ashok Sir tried a lot to fit in this jigsaw puzzle though he aways made me miss Sam Sir more. Still you stand through all our complains with your patient smile.
• Ill miss the Drosophila , the labs , my complains about my classmates and so many more.
• The PNPC with Swapnadeepa ( she will always be- ma amar) , the bond and bongness we share.My fights with Arindam and the little talk (secret) at backstairs hiding from everyone. The copy girl and candycrush queen Chaithra and the sweet girl Amitha. The long hair of Vimala and the quietest Aishwarya with the gamer irritating Anas( the only Y chromosome of our department). Im surely going to miss this small department of us.
• All the great deeds we did and all the rules we broke to come out best in creativity. I guess a little more sweetness came from the achievements so far-from dance to skit, from organising fest to Communal Harmony Day celebration, all within this span of 2 years. 

I  might not be that cheesy to sing "Yaad ayenge ye pal" in my last day but surely I will miss being a student once again.

Till then I wish myself luck as well others for the coming days.

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