Where is the real me???

Am I the little girl who used to hold her ma's neck and used to say "ma go ma jogojani ma"?
Am I the girl who used to eat "chachimuchi" from her baba's plate??
Am I my dadu's "ditiyo-pokkho" whom he used to give divorce or "talak talak talak" every now and then and the little I used to cry like hell till her dadu took her in so called "chang-dola" style ?
Am I my dida's "dida" who snatches "pan" from her mouth and steal "chawan bahar"??
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Or am I the 18 yrs old girl who is deeply in love with someone who is everything for her?
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What is the real me???