Except my room at 8th floor(nightmare comes of lift nt working) n my broken cistern(some ghost is in it may be) n my new day warden as well as our "hitler"-night warden(always planning to put another girl in our room) n the so called highly "hygienic n nutritious" food(sambhar-rice or mainly if something different that too a dal only)n morning hurry(college from 8:30 now) n struggle for existence(word applied by 'me' for gettin a seat in college bus).....n nt so bt many more............hostel is fine...
but....
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college rocks...though its semi school only(gates open at 12:30 n 3:30 only) n according to abhijit(a bong chana),its 'pressure cooker' bt still i love it...our faculty do rock..specially sam balu sir(gen hod) n our father-divya mam(gen dept)
neverless vani mam(biotech dept) rocks too...
all our staffs specially funny girish(biochem lab assistant) do make me laugh with his funny hindi "bora bora bag" at saddest of my moment...:)
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n my friends specially sheryl(i'm her ili mari-fat rat),srivats, kunal,analjyoti,mohan n many more...i love them:)

love n proud to be an OXFORDITE...""vidya sarvatra shobhote""
wherever we will go,we will spread our own sunshine...:)

a new beginning or truly an end....??

"Every new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.

Every time you kill me,
I am born again.

Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.

And every time you say goodbye,
a different word is spoken.

Every time you look at me
my back is facing you,

And every time you ask to see me
I'll have something else to do.

Every time I join your game,
You're not playing fair,

And every time I really love you,
I pretend that I don't care. "
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i love you dear for dedicating me this poem n making me remember......
i left 'him' lone...:(

Two n half month had past,i'm in bangalore.....long away from my friends,family,love...city...long away from my ownself...
for what???
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may b career or else to show off myself as "mature"...
whatevr...
"I'm" dead...!!

Date:22nd of january'2010
Time:11:52am
Venue:home
yeah!only 53 nights i.e about 1 month n 23 days more specifically 3240 hrs left fr my boards.....or more specifically 194,400 mins or rather 11,664,000 secs.....n now lemme write down my conditn...
1)new chemistry teachr hd jus arrived n started doing 12 organic...
2)physics still nt started revising 12 (rather it will b gud if i say 'studying')
3)biology condition is like "you complete ill start aftr ur dne with it"....still waiting for sir to finish the syllabus...
4)maths-its the fourth subjct..phew!!(ma i cnt tke much tensn...il gv maths xam bt u shudnt b bothered bout its marks)
5)bengali n english-what's the syllabus...?????

When i look out of my window,i expect to see the hues of humanity;instead what reaches my nose is stink of misery...how helpless i feel,how abandoned it seems at times....i turn and pretend to b dreaming.The days haunt me,the night scares me....i know not where to belong,i feel empty....and then i feel i'm no one...i i am nothing,i am a vision,a reflection created by destiny.....a mere puppet with no motivation,no destination,with no insight....only bound with the illogical sentiment of love....that makes my life more bearable....yet more difficult ...more dangerous...........

for me

rakhi...a bond,a tie between a guy n a gal which makes them brothr sistr...

people are born brothr sister or r for their happiness but we r outta society-outta need....

it was fyn to us when others sayd sumthng wrong bout our relatn...still we wr frenz...but wen we realisd its affectin his gal n us too we end up being called as brothr sistr...

n yestrday wen i was lyin in his lap in my car(wht we did alwayz when ne one of us wr tired),he asked me for a RAKHI.

m happy....!!

atlast itz ovr....but wht??? it alwayz getz ovr without any improvemnt in me.

again flunked n chem n will flunk in maths 4 sure....but no regret,no dissapointment n m happy dat puja is ryt da corner,my trip to gopalpur is aftr dat n offcouse da night stay at school....

counting dayz left 4 puja,,shopping,,irritating my folks for dis n that n m on with my own tunes....

forgeting dat i hvnt been 2 akash 4 5 weeks,missed many of its xamz,dnt evn knw bout itz topicz been covered...leave aakash........m bunkin school,tutionz n evry bit of thing (which peopl think i m for) n lettin my career ship drown for wht................................???

m happy dats it...!!