Date:22nd of january'2010
Time:11:52am
Venue:home
yeah!only 53 nights i.e about 1 month n 23 days more specifically 3240 hrs left fr my boards.....or more specifically 194,400 mins or rather 11,664,000 secs.....n now lemme write down my conditn...
1)new chemistry teachr hd jus arrived n started doing 12 organic...
2)physics still nt started revising 12 (rather it will b gud if i say 'studying')
3)biology condition is like "you complete ill start aftr ur dne with it"....still waiting for sir to finish the syllabus...
4)maths-its the fourth subjct..phew!!(ma i cnt tke much tensn...il gv maths xam bt u shudnt b bothered bout its marks)
5)bengali n english-what's the syllabus...?????

When i look out of my window,i expect to see the hues of humanity;instead what reaches my nose is stink of misery...how helpless i feel,how abandoned it seems at times....i turn and pretend to b dreaming.The days haunt me,the night scares me....i know not where to belong,i feel empty....and then i feel i'm no one...i i am nothing,i am a vision,a reflection created by destiny.....a mere puppet with no motivation,no destination,with no insight....only bound with the illogical sentiment of love....that makes my life more bearable....yet more difficult ...more dangerous...........

for me

rakhi...a bond,a tie between a guy n a gal which makes them brothr sistr...

people are born brothr sister or r for their happiness but we r outta society-outta need....

it was fyn to us when others sayd sumthng wrong bout our relatn...still we wr frenz...but wen we realisd its affectin his gal n us too we end up being called as brothr sistr...

n yestrday wen i was lyin in his lap in my car(wht we did alwayz when ne one of us wr tired),he asked me for a RAKHI.

m happy....!!

atlast itz ovr....but wht??? it alwayz getz ovr without any improvemnt in me.

again flunked n chem n will flunk in maths 4 sure....but no regret,no dissapointment n m happy dat puja is ryt da corner,my trip to gopalpur is aftr dat n offcouse da night stay at school....

counting dayz left 4 puja,,shopping,,irritating my folks for dis n that n m on with my own tunes....

forgeting dat i hvnt been 2 akash 4 5 weeks,missed many of its xamz,dnt evn knw bout itz topicz been covered...leave aakash........m bunkin school,tutionz n evry bit of thing (which peopl think i m for) n lettin my career ship drown for wht................................???

m happy dats it...!!

FRIENDSHIP DAY

WISH U ALL A VERY HAPPY FRIENSHIP DAY(BELATED)

friends......a beautiful creation,a heavenly possession, a lifelong validation....this is what friends are.....

the bond of friendship

Thank u for ur friendship

it means so much to me

u r alwayz understanding

and display true loyalty.

My life has been so blessed

since u hv come my way

ur cheerful personality

brightens each day.

In sunshine and in shadow

u hv shared my hopes n fears

u hv made my life so happy

as we hv travelled through years.

Time will never break the bond

of friendz who truly care

so each day i thank god

for friendship that we share.

i got dis mail today only frm him......

" dear jhilik,

i got ur mail last month but some how or other i couldnt reply....m sorry for that...i know u well n i knw ur hurt a lot.....u hv told me all bout ur life n i knw at this moment, ur life is at mess....some years before i was also at ur place....don think that i want to say that my problems were greater or less or same as you but i wanna say don lose hope n believe in urself n in almighty....evrything will b fine by next year..................................................................."

he had send me this beautiful piece of a poetry or a story or frm any damn thing which i m hardly caring bout.....

""You can make life what u want it to be through belief in yourself

what is meant to be will always find away

it is better to be hated for who u are than to be loved for someone u are not

dont let what others think decide who you are

be bold and courageous when u look back on ur life

regret for the things u didnt do than the things u did

what appears to be end IS A NEW BEGINNING......!!! ""

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may be people will find it dull n boring but dis piece of parts has givn a new dimension to my thinking of my life.....

thank you sir...thankz a lot for dis mail......!!

"ha bhailog,hum ka bata rahe the... ha..,,

anish k bareemein...woh cmc vellore mein 21st rank kiya ha....aur aplog ye easy sum bhi na kar pa rahe hai...................................".n our physics sir continued dis crap for more dan 45 minz...n we da poor ccfc batch studentz half frightened n more dan half disheartened n frustrated was trying to digest his wordz which didnt hav any effect on dat sum other dan lessening our self confidence......

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after he left some tried to solve it with or without any result............. n we da so called not studious n "nt so meditorious" students of nt so good batch went out to hav fast food....n dis is what m doing from the bloom of my class 12.......

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came back home with heavily loaded stomach....when heard dat baba tellin ma..""jano omoresher chele isc te 96% peyece........"".....i tried to over hear it...bt baba called me..""mamoni omoresher chele toh toder okhane pore na..................!!!..ki jeno naam or...??""

i said.."ha ..or naam anish...o ebar cmc te rank o korece........."

n den baba starts giving lecture to mom bout anish.....though it was intended to me...."jano o or babar jama pant pore r mamoni......................................................"

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it was hard to face the reality but it is the truth dat students lyk anish,shubhodeep,sagnik can only get through dis examz while we the so called trendy peopl can only dream of the stetho on our collars n can waste loadz of buckz of our folkz in order to accomplish the dream which hardly can come true.......

itz nt da end....evryday we say lies after lies to ourselves,our parentz n evryone who pampers us nw thinking dat next year we vl nt b with dem but far away from kolkata,in an reputed medical institute,some where in india........

but phew!!....we only knw hw much we struggle doin a sum from h.c. verma.......n at last leav it n go for anothr one..............................

or go for a chicken roll may be at prime way........