Two n half month had past,i'm in bangalore.....long away from my friends,family,love...city...long away from my ownself...
for what???
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may b career or else to show off myself as "mature"...
whatevr...
"I'm" dead...!!

Date:22nd of january'2010
Time:11:52am
Venue:home
yeah!only 53 nights i.e about 1 month n 23 days more specifically 3240 hrs left fr my boards.....or more specifically 194,400 mins or rather 11,664,000 secs.....n now lemme write down my conditn...
1)new chemistry teachr hd jus arrived n started doing 12 organic...
2)physics still nt started revising 12 (rather it will b gud if i say 'studying')
3)biology condition is like "you complete ill start aftr ur dne with it"....still waiting for sir to finish the syllabus...
4)maths-its the fourth subjct..phew!!(ma i cnt tke much tensn...il gv maths xam bt u shudnt b bothered bout its marks)
5)bengali n english-what's the syllabus...?????

When i look out of my window,i expect to see the hues of humanity;instead what reaches my nose is stink of misery...how helpless i feel,how abandoned it seems at times....i turn and pretend to b dreaming.The days haunt me,the night scares me....i know not where to belong,i feel empty....and then i feel i'm no one...i i am nothing,i am a vision,a reflection created by destiny.....a mere puppet with no motivation,no destination,with no insight....only bound with the illogical sentiment of love....that makes my life more bearable....yet more difficult ...more dangerous...........

for me

rakhi...a bond,a tie between a guy n a gal which makes them brothr sistr...

people are born brothr sister or r for their happiness but we r outta society-outta need....

it was fyn to us when others sayd sumthng wrong bout our relatn...still we wr frenz...but wen we realisd its affectin his gal n us too we end up being called as brothr sistr...

n yestrday wen i was lyin in his lap in my car(wht we did alwayz when ne one of us wr tired),he asked me for a RAKHI.

m happy....!!

atlast itz ovr....but wht??? it alwayz getz ovr without any improvemnt in me.

again flunked n chem n will flunk in maths 4 sure....but no regret,no dissapointment n m happy dat puja is ryt da corner,my trip to gopalpur is aftr dat n offcouse da night stay at school....

counting dayz left 4 puja,,shopping,,irritating my folks for dis n that n m on with my own tunes....

forgeting dat i hvnt been 2 akash 4 5 weeks,missed many of its xamz,dnt evn knw bout itz topicz been covered...leave aakash........m bunkin school,tutionz n evry bit of thing (which peopl think i m for) n lettin my career ship drown for wht................................???

m happy dats it...!!

FRIENDSHIP DAY

WISH U ALL A VERY HAPPY FRIENSHIP DAY(BELATED)

friends......a beautiful creation,a heavenly possession, a lifelong validation....this is what friends are.....

the bond of friendship

Thank u for ur friendship

it means so much to me

u r alwayz understanding

and display true loyalty.

My life has been so blessed

since u hv come my way

ur cheerful personality

brightens each day.

In sunshine and in shadow

u hv shared my hopes n fears

u hv made my life so happy

as we hv travelled through years.

Time will never break the bond

of friendz who truly care

so each day i thank god

for friendship that we share.

i got dis mail today only frm him......

" dear jhilik,

i got ur mail last month but some how or other i couldnt reply....m sorry for that...i know u well n i knw ur hurt a lot.....u hv told me all bout ur life n i knw at this moment, ur life is at mess....some years before i was also at ur place....don think that i want to say that my problems were greater or less or same as you but i wanna say don lose hope n believe in urself n in almighty....evrything will b fine by next year..................................................................."

he had send me this beautiful piece of a poetry or a story or frm any damn thing which i m hardly caring bout.....

""You can make life what u want it to be through belief in yourself

what is meant to be will always find away

it is better to be hated for who u are than to be loved for someone u are not

dont let what others think decide who you are

be bold and courageous when u look back on ur life

regret for the things u didnt do than the things u did

what appears to be end IS A NEW BEGINNING......!!! ""

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may be people will find it dull n boring but dis piece of parts has givn a new dimension to my thinking of my life.....

thank you sir...thankz a lot for dis mail......!!